Who would have thought that being a stay at home mom would be so much work?? I seriously give it up to any of you moms who work and then have to come home to take care of a home, a husband, and kids. I don't know how you do it.
Maybe it's the fact that I've had an extra person around all day to take care of lately, but my life has been feeling so chaotic and overwhelming. I finally cleaned the bathroom today - for the first time in almost 2 weeks. The rest of the house is a mess, I'm hardly even cooking dinner anymore, and I wake up exhausted in the morning, wondering how I can do it all again. But it has got me thinking. Why is my life so crazy? And it's not because just being a mom and a wife has kept me busy. That is a huge part of it, but not all of it.
I tend to take too much on myself. And I have decided that I want a simple life.
I have felt this coming on for months now. I look around at my house, and I want to purge. Get rid of it all, except what we really use on a daily basis. I am surrounded by too much "stuff". And I have begun to realize that not only am I surrounded by too many physical things, but I am filling my life with too many responsibilities. And today, I decided to get rid of the first of one of my responsibilities - or at least put it on hold. After getting a rude email from someone, basically berating me for slacking on the Foodie Giveaway blog, I decided that it was going to be the first of my time stealers to go. It makes me sad, because I really see potential in making some money off of it one day, but for now, I just can't do it. And you know what? I feel better already!!
I'm taking baby steps right now. I've been really concentrating on getting things together to start my photography business (I'll write more about that later), so if I ever start getting business there, something else may have to go. I love my food blog and have been doing it for so long that I can't imagine not doing it, but that right there would probably give me at least an hour of every day back. But I decided that this blog is my most important one - one that I will continue to keep. I used to be really good at keeping a journal, but I have been quite a slacker with that for the last 4 years. This has really turned into my journal. Maybe not a super personal journal, so maybe it's my journal and my scrapbook all in one. (Since scrapbooking is something that I haven't had time for either.)
I just want things to be simple and easy. Baby steps.