Who would have thought that being a stay at home mom would be so much work?? I seriously give it up to any of you moms who work and then have to come home to take care of a home, a husband, and kids. I don't know how you do it.
Maybe it's the fact that I've had an extra person around all day to take care of lately, but my life has been feeling so chaotic and overwhelming. I finally cleaned the bathroom today - for the first time in almost 2 weeks. The rest of the house is a mess, I'm hardly even cooking dinner anymore, and I wake up exhausted in the morning, wondering how I can do it all again. But it has got me thinking. Why is my life so crazy? And it's not because just being a mom and a wife has kept me busy. That is a huge part of it, but not all of it.
I tend to take too much on myself. And I have decided that I want a simple life.
I have felt this coming on for months now. I look around at my house, and I want to purge. Get rid of it all, except what we really use on a daily basis. I am surrounded by too much "stuff". And I have begun to realize that not only am I surrounded by too many physical things, but I am filling my life with too many responsibilities. And today, I decided to get rid of the first of one of my responsibilities - or at least put it on hold. After getting a rude email from someone, basically berating me for slacking on the Foodie Giveaway blog, I decided that it was going to be the first of my time stealers to go. It makes me sad, because I really see potential in making some money off of it one day, but for now, I just can't do it. And you know what? I feel better already!!
I'm taking baby steps right now. I've been really concentrating on getting things together to start my photography business (I'll write more about that later), so if I ever start getting business there, something else may have to go. I love my food blog and have been doing it for so long that I can't imagine not doing it, but that right there would probably give me at least an hour of every day back. But I decided that this blog is my most important one - one that I will continue to keep. I used to be really good at keeping a journal, but I have been quite a slacker with that for the last 4 years. This has really turned into my journal. Maybe not a super personal journal, so maybe it's my journal and my scrapbook all in one. (Since scrapbooking is something that I haven't had time for either.)
I just want things to be simple and easy. Baby steps.
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its rough. I dont know if I would have really truly ever understood, even if someone had told me, how hard parenthood really was. Yes, its rewarding but so hard.
Its funny that you say you dont know how working mothers do it. I dont know how you do it. Even more.. I have NO IDEA how my husband does it. Working 8 hours a day.. from home and taking care of the baby??? I'm pretty sure he's super man.
I'm sorry you have to put the giveaway blog on hold. Maybe one day things will settle down a little...
You havent mention yet that Abbi got teeth!!! Hopefully you are still fairing okay.. the bitting didnt begin for Miles until he got his top teeth! I was getting pretty cocky telling people he never bit me and I dont think he ever will.... hahahaha!!!
Good luck with everything..I hope you find the simplicity you are looking for....
I can't believe someone got on your case about your food blog. You are wonderful to even do one. I figured you were making money off of that..
I agree it's so exhausting being a mom and home and I feel the same way as you.. it's crazy.. I look around and just want to throw it all away. Yes.. simplify.
Good luck on the photo thing.. it's hard work and time away from baby too. But you're lucky to have fam right there.
I've really been working hard at not being on the computer as much too.. like FB.. it's just wasted time. .and i'm not getting everything done around the house that I would like.
nice job girl. I often feel like I need to take a step back and look at my life. What a loser for getting on your about the give-away. seriously, how do people have the nerve to be so rude?
well, i love ya. this was a good post
I absolutely agree with Ryley. I was just thinking about this earlier today, after a very rough morning with Andrew: I CANNOT imagine how stay-at-home moms do it. By the time Sunday night rolls around, I'm just exhausted and sort of ready to go back to work.
I'm sure things will settle down soon, but in the meantime, I don't blame you for putting Foodie Giveaway on hold. It's such an awesome idea, but I imagine it's a lot of pressure. I can't believe someone sent you a nasty e-mail about it! Sheesh.
Hang in there. I think you're doing such an awesome job. :)
Parenting is tough. I look back on my three under three and wonder how I did it. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I promise.
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